super unmotivated

this is the sem which i have the least motivation to work siah....

even midterm tests and quizzes i m not even really studying for them.... think this sem is a goner.

i am really super unmotivated leh... why???!? not only in studies... but with many other things too. fuck up siah... this sem, i cannot really find myself a reason to work hard. things that i studied in nus doesn't stick with me... so even if i take the attitude of wanting to learn smthing, itz hard too cos i know jolly well that i will only be able to learn them this sem thatz all. once this sem passed, whatever i've learned will be unlearned. sickening siah... this kinda feeling damn shitty. spend so much effort and turned out not having them internalised entirely. even my stats. i cannot really remember stuffs on regression and DOE liaoz. only more of the technical stuffs. less of the real analytical knowledge.

sad. thatz why i always say i m not clever. this is about as good as i can be. i dun think i m stupid. i m smart, and very exam smart actually too. but i m not clever.

motivation is an important factor to keep one moving. academic stuffs aside. i hope pple in consonance are still motivated.