not going well

things are going quite bad for me....

when automod 12 gone crazy for me... that was the first time that i felt i might fail my FYP. but thatz because, all that i have done cannot even run cos of some crappy shit in version 12.

now that things are going "fine" in automod 11... fine as in the simulation environment loads fine without problem... this is the first time i am feeling very shitty about my fyp....

i am getting so so so sick of it liaoz. very demoralized.

1 mth has gone since the new year started. i cannot say i din do much... cos i spent quite a bit of time on my FYP. i changed the model a few times already, due to requirements from PSA, and stupid glitches from automod 12. i am supposedly only need to do 2 models at first... then PSA wanted more so become 3. but, plus all the "spoilt" models i redo for version 11, 12, then 11 again... and many changes requirements from PSA... i cannot remember exactly how many models i have done, debug, redo, and debug again.

sounds like i have done a lot? but come down to the truth... i m running around the boundary of square 1. i have not even move on to square 2.

zhanghua shown me her interview questions she prepared for herself last sem. one of them says,

"what makes u most frustrated?"

i say, "not being able to move on".

now i suddenly want to listen to the music of hunchback of notre dame.... god help the outcast.

getting sick in the midst of all these shit din really add much fun to my life either.... but dear, thanks for cooking me the porridge. very nice!

other than the very very nice porridge, warming up with consonance today is the only other consolation i have for this week...