a short update

actually, nothing much to update. my life has been revolving around fyp, sdp, finding jobs and going for interviews, and accompanying my darling.

fyp.... okay lah. made some progress... the progress being i am stopping my coding liaoz. shall start running the 4 models and collect some results.

sdp.... okay lah. survived through the meeting with NUH although got to prepare for a bigger one to meet with the management level one. still gotta tie down with the simulation model for SDP.

job.... okay lah. went to P&G problem solving test. quite difficult. not any easier than the practices they provide. but i did manage to finish all 50 questions in 65 mins. finished the long application forms with 9 essays required for them too. they better give me an interview chance man.... spent so much time on them.

darling.... okay lah. din sleep for one night to prepare things for her on vday... although already bought facial wash and toner for her liaoz.... at least she made something extra for me on top of her presents too. hahahahahha~~~ so never lugi. went genting with her, wenqiu and kotsuke on vday. had fun... cos at least i got a very good break from fyp and sdp, and spent some quality time with her bah. been busy and never spend much time with her.

chinese new year... brought my darling back to let my parents see too. got some angbaos which will come in good use, soon... and watch quite a few shows during this vday-cny break. but, gotta go back to my fyp soon...

他妈的...

first success story

first success story in my interviews so far... but not confirmed yet though. only a verbal offer.

anyway, am not going to immediately take up any offers yet.

cos, i am waiting for the big one. whahahahaha

had a good lunch today

lunched with my philips intern mates today... although we lunched at a fucked up place - engine canteen, i've enjoyed myself pretty much. i've always kinda enjoy myself eating with this bunch of people. really... the best take-away for me from the philips internship is this bunch of people man.

today generally is okay. i woke up late... around 10am. then do a bit of tidying for my simulation input data, before adjourning to my lab. met deqiang at canteen, and had some time to catch up with him. then, itz meeting philips friends for lunch.

lunched till 2, i made my way to the lab and start to think about my FYP. felt asleep halfway though... hahaha... but at the end of the day, i've finally completed and got my model 2 going, and fine without noticeable bugs. i am not really sure if there are any bugs lah... but at least i dun see them happening. hopefully i dun need to change it again.

did a bit of SDP too. and now, i m back in my room after a supper. not the most efficient day, but at least it ended well with something accomplished.

tml will be editing my model 1 and get it going.

not going well

things are going quite bad for me....

when automod 12 gone crazy for me... that was the first time that i felt i might fail my FYP. but thatz because, all that i have done cannot even run cos of some crappy shit in version 12.

now that things are going "fine" in automod 11... fine as in the simulation environment loads fine without problem... this is the first time i am feeling very shitty about my fyp....

i am getting so so so sick of it liaoz. very demoralized.

1 mth has gone since the new year started. i cannot say i din do much... cos i spent quite a bit of time on my FYP. i changed the model a few times already, due to requirements from PSA, and stupid glitches from automod 12. i am supposedly only need to do 2 models at first... then PSA wanted more so become 3. but, plus all the "spoilt" models i redo for version 11, 12, then 11 again... and many changes requirements from PSA... i cannot remember exactly how many models i have done, debug, redo, and debug again.

sounds like i have done a lot? but come down to the truth... i m running around the boundary of square 1. i have not even move on to square 2.

zhanghua shown me her interview questions she prepared for herself last sem. one of them says,

"what makes u most frustrated?"

i say, "not being able to move on".

now i suddenly want to listen to the music of hunchback of notre dame.... god help the outcast.

getting sick in the midst of all these shit din really add much fun to my life either.... but dear, thanks for cooking me the porridge. very nice!

other than the very very nice porridge, warming up with consonance today is the only other consolation i have for this week...