kopped from ivan

i think the picture not bad leh.... quite sui... but i got a guai lan look. hahahhaha

oh yah... these are my SDP group mates... system design project group mates. doing NUH project. king of all fabrications. hahahahha

juz when i tot i might have a little break....

and suddenly it seems... no!!??!?

okay... i'm more or less done with my FYP liaoz. seriously speaking... i was kinda stressed up, in fact quite stressed cos my model doesn't seems to be churning comfortable results. finally, after some attempts... i managed to squeeze something out, and immediately, i put a stop at going further.

so finally, i wrote my report, edited it accordingly to my prof's comments, and revised it for the 3rd time. handed it up, thinking, i juz need to wait till wednesday and that is it.

FYP can juz be a history... at least report writing.

but... now i am worried.... cos i juz read an email from prof lee.

"Hi, Yongbin,

Wen quan has written the report, maybe we can convert the report in the paper form and then submit to Winter simulation conference if it is not too late.

Generally, may be we can send an email to the program chair to ask for another two weeks extension.

Sorry for the last minute call, as I think the report has sufficient contents to be sent to WSC.

Thanks.

LH"

suddenly... i am worried i need to rewrite stuffs....

itz not a bad thing seriously... cos it juz means i have a decent chance in getting a decent results for my FYP if my paper is submitted.... but then seriously... i dun want to work any further liaoz leh....

i juz want to graduate....

and sometimes... i seriously wonder why do they have so much confidence in my results and modeling... did they ever wonder that my model might not be accurate actually??? siao man...

FYP report more or less completed

I have finally more or less completed writing my FYP report. Just some touch up with my flow chart diagram and I am done.

But i am done doesn't mean others are done with me. I've juz submitted a copy of the report to Prof Lee. I din send him the other time when the first draft is supposed to be handed up, cos the report does not have the complete results from all my simulation models. This time round, i completed and send it up to him. Hopefully, he will be kind enough to not request any big changes to my report, or ask me to run more results bah. It has really been very very very very painful.

This has really been a super super super painful process. Many a time, I almost break. Break as in... felt really stressed up. Simulation modeling and running is really not that easy. I have come to regret taking up this topic man. At the end of the day, I am really unsure if my model is accurate or not. Thanks to my limited knowledge.

It is going to end soon. I dun really care how it is going to end anymore, as long as I pass and graduate. Give me a C or even a D, nmd. I juz want to fuck off and graduate.

If i fail, and u tell me to continue with the project for another year.... U might as well kill me. And i mean, I literally mean, I might go suicide. I rather die man....

and juz another note. Thanks darling for being with me all the time. I know u dun like to be in the lab. There isn't any thing much for you to do in the lab with me either. But u've been around and accompanying me. And you been really nice and understanding. Hopefully, after the FYP, i will have the luxury of time to accompany you more often.

But hey, I still want to go back to Consonance to sing on saturday hor~~~ hahahaha

Love you baby.

it had been a busy week

it has been an extremely busy week.

of cos, itz FYP that is spearheading all these hectic shit. but, job finding adds on to the already taut string.

on last monday, i've gotta go down to changi to pick up my first job offer. well, this simply means i am at least secure in some sense. but i am not really interested in picking up this job lah. hoping to get better offers along the way.

then on tuesday, i stayed in the lab whole day, trying to churn out some stuffs for my FYP simulation and report. cos i gotta hand in a first draft on last friday.

wednesday, met up for sdp meeting. then after that, immediately gotta go down to PSA to talk to the people there about some of my simulation results. and guess what? gotta change stuffs... so i gotta rerun everything again!!! and then, the report was going to be due in 2 days time... gau gau.... i stayed back in the lab till 2am in the morning to churn out some crap to put inside the report man... sibei gau... damn shack

thursday, took time out to go maersk for an aptitude test. think din do too well on that... anyway, i never really expect myself to get anything out from maersk either. this is probably going to be a waste of my time anyway. quickly after the maersk written test, go back nus to meet prof for sdp meeting. then fyp again.

friday, early in the morning went down for P&G interview. took me a lot of effort to finally land myself for this interview. felt that i did quite poorly for the interview round... but surprisingly, i got a call in the evening that i actually passed it!! hahaha... the flop in the morning got my mood very sucky at first... but was damn happy to know i actually passed the first round. then quickly chop chop finish up the fyp draft report and sent them to my professors. hahaha~~~ went out to clementi to have dinner and have my spectacle changed. the previous one actually broke while i was researching on P&G on thursday.... then i gotta wear my gf's spec for the interview. gau gau...

took a short break from projects for this weekend... although i still spent an afternoon with ivan in the lab discussing sdp. but okay lah... that meeting quite slack. hahaha...

at least, one of the worst weeks is over for now. although got some other small things making me a bit unhappy here and there, but at least the week is over. tml and tuesday gotta go tech semicon to do the pre-employment orientation. work 2 days, get $200. not bad siah. the money will sure come in useful especially i have no income and no pocket money!!

next week, chiong again for FYP. hopefully next week can finish all my simulation runnings and go PSA and talk cock with them again. then hopefully, i can finally give my FYP a final blow and keep it at rest.

FYP is a goner

sick of it.

fucking fucking sick of it.

juz let me graduate. i dun want my first class anymore.

regret.

why did i choose a simulation project? why did i choose something so tough, time consuming, and need not in the end be something that is good?

in this project, too many people are involved. i know too little and din do much research to decide things myself. no way am i able to do much research when i am not able to visit the port myself anyway.

at the end of the day, i am not even sure if i am coding a correct model afterall.

27 senarios, each sample size 5. 4 models in all. total runs needed = 27 x 4 x 5. prof asked me to consider running another dimension... so it might be 27 x 4 x 5 x 2. hahaha... each runs takes 20 mins.

kill me bah. need to redo some runs cos there are more datas i want to collect and look into. damn siong.

anyway, as a breakaway from these works, i realised something stupid juz now.

someone know of my blog, and post it at hardwarezone.com.... what the fuck!?!

see it for yourself. itz damn siao one. really. click the link and find "all-my-thoughts.blogspot.com" in the forum entries.

http://forums.hardwarezone.com/showthread.php?t=1482013&page=7&pp=15