and i almost forget...

continuation from the previous post...

i still gotta go find jobs, and listen to those career talks!!!

fuck lah! where to find time?

i dun really know how to safely survive this week...

i've finally gotten my first model for my FYP working but there are still alot to be done. it is working, in the sense that the logic seems to be working fine for now. I still need to change the entire layout to the new one... which took me a lot of time today.

the layout is more or less settled... but i still need to reset all the worklist and parklist for the control points, which are very tedious stuffs.

this week will be extremely busy for me man...

later on tuesday, i am having jap lesson from 10-2. then i gotta go set up all the worklist and parklist for my FYP, which i guess will take me through the whole afternoon till, say 5-6? then i need to go code another simulation model for SDP. night, i gotta study my Jap vocab quiz for chapter 15, and do the kanji writing application practice, due wednesday.

wed got japanese TB lesson from 4-6, which means i gotta spend some time to prepare for the lesson. then wed also gotta meet for SDP. in between, i gotta find time to code the SDP simulation model, and also my FYP second model. in the night, i gotta go memorise Jap TC conversation practice for thursday...

thursday meeting for SDP again.... and same old shit for coding SDP and FYP at the same time. gotta prepare stuffs to meet with the PSA people on friday too. which means, i gotta try to finish the second model on thursday... which i have exactly no idea if that is entirely possible or not.

friday... the morning and noon part gotta consolidate stuffs for PSA meeting at 3pm. then come back, gotta whack SDP all the way...

sat, SDP continues....


nabei lah!!! the sheer thought freaks me off....

problematic

long time never update. cos nothing much public to update. i've been having fun, and i hope itz not too much fun though. haha...

cos my fyp is a bit hong gan now. chee bye.... now a bit regret take Prof Lee's project liaoz. mistake man... Automod is really not the most friendly program man.... I have decided to fuck the version 12 model and use my version 11 model back. but fucking hell... i need to redo a lot of stuffs on the layout, and these are one of the worst mundane shit. i've been redo-ing layouts a lot of time liaoz.... sibei du lan.

layout aside, got some problem with the coding logic too. need to find ways to find out where exactly went wrong man... Automod coding not like C++/Java coding... debugging logic problem is damn difficult.

time is a bit tight, but as long as i can manage that logic shit out, things shld be managable.

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and sorry dear, our time spent together are more in the lab than anywhere else. hahaha... u found urself a mugger! and no need to worry about me... i will be able to settle my FYP just fine. just need to take a bit of time and my brain juice.

what should i do?

many things. one brain.

what should i do?

at least one load will be off my mind after today. consonance is in good hands.

it's a new year, after all

first and foremost, happy new year to everyone! it's finally 2007, and of cos, i am again a bit late to wish everyone a happy new year. As always. i read back my 2006 posts, and realised i posted on the second day of 2006 then too. hahahhaha.... no matter what, i hope everyone had enjoyed their new year day countdown and stuffs, a fulfilling 2006, and a happy 2007 ahead.

Looking back in 2006, what have i done? Again, i dun think i've done a lot of things. My life still mainly revolves around school. But then, some things have changed. I've also made some decisions, which are considered big to me.

In 2006,

1) I've decided to leave Consonance for a prolonged period of 6 months. Big decision to me, since it has been a big focus in life since 5 years ago. Making this decision wasn't really the easiest thing to do on earth, but itz a decision that I've put in much thoughts in.

2) Another turning point in my life - started a relationship. Think many people still dunnoe, but after posting this entry, more people will know. Yes, I am in a relationship now, and I am happy. Thank you.

3) I've moved into PGP. I wanted to stay in school before i entered NUS, cos i dun like to travel so much everyday. Parents and brothers weren't too agreeable then. After seeing me slogged for so many years, they finally decided i meant truth when i said i want to stay in school to work. But, even if they dun like, they also lan lan.

4) I ran a lot more often. I ran very often for quite some time, but have not been running much for this month. Partly cos of exams. Then i went malaysia. Then, the blardee prolonged raining. But, i will continue to run.

5) I went malaysia, again, with the ISE people. This time round, my gf is in the group.

6) One of my biggest achievements i think, is that I've moved on from being a mugger. Broken myself out from the rat race. Damn happy. Not affected by lousy results too. hahahah... but that being said, i became much less focused in doing things. But, all in all, i had a very good rest from academic pursue. Next year, I shld pick up the pieces and cheong again. Not for academic though... juz want to do well in my FYP and SDP, and others.

7) Activites that highlights my 2006 are concert "FIVE" and being Ben's brother gang in his wedding. Concert FIVE really highlights my time in Consonance, having felt that that's my best-liked concert performance. Am also damn glad to have met the new young ones in Consonance, and they making concert FIVE so special for me. And, I am glad to have been part of Ben's wedding too. Owe him so much man.

8) Went to do VIP in Philips. Din exactly enjoyed myself there. Ended up quarreling with one of the full-time employee too. hahaha... damn gau. but he deserved it anyway. but him aside, the rest of the people there are very fine and friendly. took good care of me. Also, met really nice NUS interns there too. hope to continue to keep in touch with them.

9) first time in my life in nus, i enjoyed a module very much. that was HR2002. the memories are sort of fading liaoz... but i really enjoyed that module then. thank you peggy, for making it so enjoyable.

10) another decision. small and obvious though. I decided not to do masters anymore.

11) 2006 is a bad year cos many of my friends met very big problems in their lives. One of them, as we all know it, is deqiang. Hey man, u took it well, and i've learnt something from you. Do take care of yourself man. Anything, juz call. U can call jiayin also. hahahaha....

12) In 2006, i've also realised i m still not mentally prepared enough to accept bad news within the family. however, in that aspect, i think i've grown better in managing these issues now too. Having seen friends coping with problems, I took something away from that too. Guess, now, i can better manage my emotions further.

Now, having talked about 2006, itz time for 2007. the following are not exactly new year's resolutions. the following are juz stuffs i wanna do, and hope i will do them. it doesn't need to be a new year to list these desires down.

In 2007,

1) I would like to get my first class honours. With that said, i want my FYP an A-. Be it for myself or others. Like what Julius said, i've already ran so far. Putting some priority in FYP is just treating myself fairer.

2) I've slacked for 1 good year liaoz. It's time to pick up the pieces and move on. I hope to be more focused in doing things. I am, nonetheless, 25 years old this year. I dun really have much more time to waste.

3) Continue running. I want to be fitter, than myself now. Itz impossible to be fitter than myself during army liaoz.

4) Start reading newspaper. Get to know the world a bit better.

5) Read more widely. Things like investments stuffs and others. To develop myself not juz academically bah.

6) Find a job. Which is obvious. But am ordered to put it down as a resolution by someone.

7) I would like to go traveling. I've not left singapore very often, partly due to time factor, and partly due to financial factor. now i have some money, and have some time. if i dun do any traveling now, i never will.

8) Rejoin Consonance 6 mths later.

9) I would like to explore something new in my life though. I still love choral singing, and i dun think i will give it up anytime soon. But, am thinking of trying something new. However, i still dunnoe whatz that "something" yet.

10) I've lost touch with many of my friends. And i am guilty of not making too much effort in keeping touch with them. Would love to meet them more often, but in practicality, thatz not going to be too possible. All of us have too many deadlines to follow, and too many people to meet up. If meet them one by one, thatz going to take too much time. But still, it never is a bad thing to want to keep a basic contact going. People like my choir batch people like cheryl stella and chai heng, my og friends, my philips internship friends, choir juniors like zicong kaixuan huishih huizhen weisi yunwei... wah... i really lost touch with them man. And people like jiayin... no... i dun want to lose touch with them.

11) As a follow-up from point 10, maybe i shld try to be less of a loner. maybe i shld be more proactive on msn and get to know how they are doing.

12) last point for now. I love my dear, and i hope to be a proper boyfriend that cares for you in the right way bah.


thatz all i can think of right now bah... at a time of 2:32 am in the morning. i'm not very tired, having slept a lot on 1 Jan. but then, still....

"time is money. there is an exchange rate attached to it."