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16 Dec 2006, 00:00

campus run

seems like the frequent, but slack, run has improved my stamina a little bit.

itz been quite some time since i last did a campus run. juz came back from one alone. was pretty surprised to do a 19:55min. din whack fully, but still quite shack.

maybe itz time to give my mental, and heart a torture. whahahaha

no decision is easy

if a decision is easy, it should not even be considered as being a decision.

making a decision is never easy. it always involves making sacrifices, sometimes for other benefits, or not.

this year is coming to a close. is this year a good year? i think there are happy times, and there are some really bad times. for quite a few of my friends, this probably has been a very bad year. this is one year whereby many close friends around me had many unhappy encounters. some were less unhappy, while some are lot harsher. nonetheless, itz difficult for each of them.

this reminded me of the times during my second year in army. that was one year i was deeply overwhelmed by the shit my very close friends around me are facing. it was also one year where i realised there is just so much a person can do. while it might sound cruel, that is also one year i've learnt how to cut off my emotions appropriately.

if u cannot take care of urself, u cannot take care of others. no point getting overly affected with other people's problems that u cannot help. else, u can't even offer a simple listening ear.

anyway, i digressed. today, i've shared with a few friends on a decision i've made some time ago. it was a decision that i've put in some thoughts into. i am glad that they were understanding and respected my decision. well, they also lan lan anyway. hahaha....

but what i wanted to say is, it was also a decision that was not easy to me. i dunnoe if itz a good decision, or whether it adds on pressure to the next person. i juz considered the factors, and current situation, and i think it worth a try.

once a decision is made, i will follow it through with faith. no room for regrets later.

this post looks very meaningless and ambiguous now, but for those that are involved, it will probably be clear in the very near future. i juz felt that i needed to write something, to organise my thoughts, as i need some organisation now. sorry for meaningless read.